Out of balance.

I’m having a very difficult time focusing today. I’m having trouble focusing on my work and the projects I need to be making progress on for my day job. I’m having trouble finding the inspiration to write anything or even brainstorm ideas for a possible writing session later. I’m having trouble doing my mindfulness exercises that I need to be doing for my Wednesday night Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction course. I’m having trouble finding motivation to do anything that isn’t staring at a blank screen and finding seven hundred different ways to organize my calendar and task lists.

Generally, when I’m distracted, it’s somehow related to something else that interests me. There are articles I want to read, or things I want to research, or information I feel like I need to look up. There are articles I want to write, ideas I want to jot down, and a million things racing through my head — all this pent-up energy and not enough time in a day to utilize all of it.

Today, it’s different. Today, I think I’m just worn out. My brain is completely passive. I don’t want to engage in any activity that pushes my mind or my body at all. If I could be doing anything at this exact moment, I’d be at home, finishing laundry, cleaning house, and taking breaks by watching television or reading my novel for book club.

I guess I need some Down Time to help my brain recharge.

I was going at a pretty break-neck speed this weekend, and I’ll be the first to admit that the weekend completely threw me off balance. Friday night, intense but fun planning and sharing with friends. Saturday, nonstop cooking, cleaning, and preparation for the St. Patrick’s Day party, immediately followed by nonstop social interaction and connecting with friends. Sunday, my body and my mind were already trying to tell me that they wanted no part of anything — just sleep, nap, play Draw Something on the iPad — but I didn’t listen to it. Instead it was off to Disc Golf, and more fun time with friends.

Don’t get me wrong — everything that’s been keeping my mind and body busy have been fun, happy things. But I think I may have overloaded the circuitry somewhat. Now, I’m off-balance and off-center from the self-awareness and peace of mind I worked at cultivating last week, and I think it’s going to take a little time to build it back up again.

This weekend seemed to be especially rattling, but to be honest, I have a similar problem on a much smaller scale most Mondays when returning to work after a weekend at home. Weekends are almost always either completely open and lazy or completely packed full of events and chores that I seem to be going one hundred miles a minute the entire time. (I never said I was an expert at moderation.)

I never live with balance though I’ve always liked the notion

I think I may need to adjust my schedule somewhat — to work more with the micro-movement plan of action and to stop tackling so much at one time on the weekends. At the same time, I think I need to make sure I’m doing something active and productive every day of the week, too, to avoid falling into a lull. I think I’m doing a much better job of balancing all the ingredients of the Healthy Mind Platter during the weekdays, but I think I need to make sure I’m doing that on the weekends, too. Specifically, I need to make sure I am balancing awesome productive behavior with some much-needed and well-deserved Down Time — that way I don’t get burned out and end up stumbling through a mindless haze like I am today.

What do you do to keep yourself balanced and in sync on the weekends?

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